I have no idea who I am. I really don't. I know what I like, and don't like. I know where I am and where I'm going. I know what I want to do in my life and I know what I have a passion for.
But I don't know WHO I am.
I don't know how to act.
I'm just so...boring.
I honestly understand why I drop off friends so quickly.
I really wouldn't want to even be friends with myself.
I just try so hard to be likeable, and to be postive and fun to be around, but I'm not.
I try to be funny.
I try to be so many things.
But if I'm TRYING, then those things aren't really me, are they?
So what am I?
I'm just a place holder.
I'm just there.
I just realized this tonight because I want so bad to be friends with people,
but I can tell that they don't feel the same way.
I just wonder what it would feel like to have people sincerely want to hang
around you and to get to know you better.
Or even what it feels like to get a text by someone who just wants to talk to you.
I'm really not trying to complain, it's just something that hit me tonight.
I try so hard to find out who I am, but really there is nothing to find.

I luvz venting.