I'm always drawn to this blog when I feel sorry for myself. Which is why I should probably just have just deleted this because all the stuff on here is quite embarrassing if anyone actually read it. All I do is either say how pathetic my life is or how happy I am. No creativty. Just rambling words. That may be perhaps the reason I've abonded this poor little page destined to reach for the stars. But I have felt the need to return. Why? Because I'm sitting here during Spring Break with absolutely nothing to do so thus, feeling sorry for myself and thus, blogging. Sitting here listening to Brad Paisley. Country music is and forever will be my guilty pleasure. Everything just feels right in the world when I hear that familiar twang, and I can feel the country side of me begging to escape. It's so small though that I don't let it escape all that often. Gosh it's such a strange feeling to go back through my old posts and be able to clearly see how much I have changed since then. Not a change for the better or worse. Just change. Back then I never would of imagined that the things would happen to me that did. I feel like I have gained a maturity through all my experiences and I'm so grateful for that. I am not so sure on where I am going anymore as I used to be, but at least for now I know who I am. I think perhaps now I will go pick out a favorite movie and make something out of my night so I don't have to sit here and drown in my self pity any longer. So long good friend, I'm sure it won't be long before I return.